July 2010
1 post
hiiiiii.
I think i am gonna be back, soooon :D
June 2010
18 posts
back to blogger
sorry im back to blogger. but dont worry cos im sure i will be back one day, in a new account perhaps. look out for me~
muchhhh loves, xoxo!
can i fall sick now?
because if i do, i can skip work later which is awesome. i hope like in the next one hour, i am down with super high fever which dont allow me to even get down from my bed. all i can do is just to sleeeep sleeeep and sleeep! :D how nice. i am crazy anyway all these wont come true, unless miracles do exist -_- hais :O
totally moodless
i dont need you to care
i dont need you to concern
i just need some silent. i know i am mean but i would appreciate if you shut up now. none of you are me, how the hell are you able to understand how i feel? what i am suffering aint happening to you guys. so whats the point talking so much.
leave me alone. let me be.
i have no idea why am i feeling so down right now. i fear… everytime...
bad feeling
i failed once again. why are you so powerful, making me feel so weak and talk to you again and again. seriously, i have to give up. i have to be determined.
currently on the phone with mummy now :) both of us are a little emo i guess. because of tomorrow. monday blues you see. i hate it.
its my offday today but.. time really flies. i hope time can fly as fast as possible when im at work. i...
hais. xxxxxxxx
i should feel happy for you. but.. i cant help but to feel a little sad. you really move on, and you totally need me no more. i want to be there for you, but the one you’d turn to next time when you’re down will not be me. we cant be like the past. both of us changed? i dont know if i do, but you, sure do. i dont really know what to say now. you wont even be seeing this so whats the...
hang on hang on !!
thanks to my beloved family & friends, i cant give up right now. i have to hang on. perhaps this is already the best solution. nothing no one is perfect. i will try to tolerate and bear with all my energy, my strength. its okay if i feel tired. i really dont mind. because of this family, i wont and i cant stoppppp.
actually i already know the answer in my heart. i just love it when people...
im so sorrrrrrrrrrry :(
Daddy and mummy, I am sorry.
Please forgive me for being such a loser, for feel like running away, for being unhappy all the time, for causing you to worry for me, endlessly. i know i am not a good daughter. i know i have many flaws. i know i shouldnt be so fragile. i know i shouldnt cry easily. i know i have to be strong.
i really have no idea how life would be without you <3 I love you...
"mummy, its hard :( "
I am not sure why am i feeling this way. perhaps i am too weak, too vulnerable too fragile. but there’re reasons why am i always worrying. ever since the first day, i dont like it. i am not used to everything. whats worst? everybody treated me like as if i am a pro. i really dont understand. yes i worked as a cashier before, but that was like 3 months ago? furthermore, nothing here is the...
first day of work.
before i start my entry, watch this: charlie bit my finger - the accident :) its nice~ and cute LOL.
And Happy Birthday to my beloved dummy, ♥ yknow you’re awesome and yknow i <3 you! hehehee
okay, working is tiring.. very! legs were aching. and my eyelids feel like closing now. but i cant sleep now, because if i do, i confirm unable to sleep at night one lor. ): pray hard that i wont...
(i dont know what to say anymore..)
Went out with eileen again just now. Went to woodlands popular as eileen need to get some stuff for school. haha! luckily, fortunately, i didnt get to see the female manager. i keep on siam here siam there. damn scared to see her cos… i rejected her offer to work in Popular that time. sorrrrrrry :o oh and the male manager there quite handsome LOL. he was tall.. and his hair is cool. but.. as...
last day
:( i will be starting work tomorrow already, time really flies.
as what i always wanted, as what i always wished, as what i always prayed for, this ‘dream’ finally come true and i cant be more grateful. Thanks God, for giving me this chance, this hope and makes me feel like i am alive once again.
I really appreciate those who keep on encouraging me as well. because of you guys, i...
why
why is it that things are so-not going my way? i am feeling hopeless at this point of time, and yet nothing goes well. there’s nothing i could do anymore. i am sick and tired of feeling so fucked up. things cant get more worst. and life couldnt be more sucky. i dont ask for more, i just hope this simple wish- everything will be fine to come true. yet no matter what the fuck am i doing...